Personal Wins for the week

31/05/2010 Booked a spot for speed dating in a coulde of weeks. I feel the benefit to me is that I am putting myself more in a situation where I am one on one with a girl more consistently. Cold approaching can be difficult at times where you need to deal with the anxiety of the approach and also deal with whether or not she'll be receptive to you. I feel the time spent one on one with a girl will determine how good with women I'll become. I think in the past month, I feel I've spent at least a total of 2 hours one on one with a girl and that needs to increase significantly if I am to get any better.

01/06/2010 Applied for some $100k jobs. Though I may not be getting any interviews at the moment. It is really opening my eyes. I feel that I can get a $100k job and I do deserve it. I feel that I need to make a few minor tweaks to my resume and how I sell myself. I think my biggest selling points are my intangibles. I'm hard working, I'm always looking to improve, I'm creative and I'm also demonstrating that the money invested in me is being re-invested in making me better at what I do.

03/06/2010 Talk about my fears. I'm not usually comfortable about opening up about my fears. I think in the past when I did open up about my fears I was coming from a place of weakness. I think I was wanting people to feel sorry for me and that they will empathise and give me the attention I craved. I think now I'm coming more from a place of strength. I feel by opening me up it is telling everyone that I am like everyone else and it's OK to have these fears.

03/06/2010 Exploring my sexuality. Corrupting myself. I have been reading on alot of things sexual. Learning to be more comfortable in my sexuality. Learning not to associate guilt with sex. I think this week is the beginning of something special.

04/06/2010 PB score for the week. I don't know if I'll have a top 10 score as I was aiming for this week but I have scored more points this week than any other week ever since I started All Stars. I'm looking forward to smashing it once the league starts.

Weekly Update Sheet

Why are you alive?
To be the best I can be and inspire others to be the best I can be.

What are you most proud of having accomplished this week?
Giving myself the permission to open up about my fears. I;m not usually open about this sort of thing but I can see the power in opening up does.

What challenges did you encounter this week?
Managing my time to get things done. It always has been a problem and I need to knuckle down and work more on my time management.

What did you most enjoy this week?
Knowing that I am in a great place in my life right now. To know that I am not where I want to be and bacause of that, there can only be exciting things to come.

What would you like to talk about during your next coaching session?
Being a sexual beast.

Is there anything else you would like to let me know?
I'm excited about the league coming up :)


Please give a field or update report below:
I only went out a couple of times last weekend. I haven't gone out much during the night and I kinda missed it. Friday I just had sex on my mind. I felt alot more sexual than I normally would be. Than I ever would be :) I opened this girl who I thought was on her own. She was a cute blonde. I grabbed her attention and got her hand and spun her into me and say into her ear "What's your name?" She's really recpetive and gets really close to me. We whisper a few words into eachothers ears. I stare deep into her eyes with sexual intent. I have her in my arms and our faces are just millimetres apart. I ask her "are you spontaneous?" She says "Yes" and I go for the kiss.

I back off for a little bit and grab a drink. I come back to the dancefloor and we're dancing real close together. It's on! I know it's on! We exchange a few words. She doesn't seem to know how to hold me so I guide one of her hands against my hip. I feel a massive boner coming on so I grab her hand and glide it onto my dick. She looks at me and says "let me get rid of her friends." I wait and wait. My friends try to block off her friends so I can spend time alone with her but to no avail. I end up getting her number and we leave the venue. I guess it made me realise you're not in the game unless you're in that sexual state. Reminder for next time...must think sexy thoughts, must think sexy thoughts, must think sexy thoughts :)

My sexuality is someting I am learning to become more and more comfortable with. I been reading books on sexuality, watching porn...just consuming my mind with sex with no sense of guilt. I think this has been a big part missing in my game and I think it's time to let the monster out.